Some Enchanted Evening

More Star and Hero. In which Danny is basically me when it comes to dancing, except I never got up the nerve to learn to lead when I took dance classes with the 50+es.

Anyway, onto the story.


It wasn’t the sort of place I expected to find myself face to face with Detective Danny H. Marsh. She looked equally surprised to see me. No doubt I hadn’t struck her as the type of woman who frequented marginally shady night clubs. She also seemed surprised to see that I was not alone.

Gabi, the daughter of Rush–one of our most trusted human caretakers–had wanted to go out; Rush and her mother, Rosario, had wanted to say no, but I’d volunteered to accompany her. There was no arguing about that from any of them. They knew Gabi would be safe with me, and Gabi knew I would still let her manage to have some actual fun. Minus alcohol, because while I had no qualms with taking a twenty-year-old to a club, I was not going to let her get intoxicated. Not there, anyway.

And now we’d run into the intriguing Detective Marsh, who was leaning against the wall near the dance floor, nursing a half-consumed bottle of water. It was intriguing to see a slightly dressed-down version of her. She wore dark jeans, those same sensible boots, and a light blue striped shirt with the sleeves rolled up. Her eyes went from me to Gabi–who at six feet rivalled Rush for height–and back to me.

“Detective!” I said with a smile, leaning in closer to make myself heard above the music. “I can’t say I expected to meet you here.”

Danny shifted her weight from one foot to the other, squeezing the water bottle slightly as she did so. “Have’ta say I’m surprised to see you, too.” She paused for a moment, eyes flicking up to Gabi again. “And please, just Danny’s fine, as much as we keep…bumping into each other.”

I offered her a smile. I could almost feel Gabi smirking above us. No doubt she had picked up on my interest in the detective; it was a hazard of her having been raised around vampires–she could read most of us like books, and never let us forget that fact. “So this is Danny,” she said. A flicker of surprise registered on Danny’s face a second before Gabi reached out to shake her hand. “I’m Gabi. And no, I’m not her girlfriend. She’s like…an older sister or a youngish aunt.”

Danny looked like she wasn’t sure whether to feel relieved or, as the saying goes, “busted.”

“Um, thanks. For that,” she said, extracting her hand from Gabi’s. “I wasn’t going to ask, but…” She trailed off, glancing back at me. “So what brings you here?”

“This one,” I said, nudging Gabi, “wanted a night out, and I’m tagging along so she’s not on her own.” Danny seemed relieved to hear the explanation.

“I’m kind of doing the same,” she said. She held up and shook the bottle of water. “I’m tonight’s designated driver.”

I grinned at her and leaned in a little closer. “Does that also keep you from the dance floor?”

Danny shrugged, looking slightly uncomfortable. “I’m not really good at dancing to most of what they’re playing tonight.”

“Would you dance with me if I convinced the DJ to play something…more your speed?” The look on Danny’s face was definitely worth it–managing to ruffle the detective seemed to result in her making adorable, if slightly confused, faces. “You can manage a slow dance, yes?”

“It’s been a while, but yeah, I can manage a slow dance without making a fool out of myself.” Still she looked half afraid that she might do exactly that.

I tugged Gabi down and whispered the song I had in mind in her ear. She looked from Danny to be and gave out a decidedly unladylike laugh–another thing besides her height that marked her as Rush’s daughter. Danny looked a little like a deer caught in the headlights; I rolled my eyes and swatted Gabi’s arm. “Go. Bribe the DJ if you have to, but get him to play that song next.”

Gabi left us, laughing again as she went. Danny downed the rest of her water and threw the bottle away. She ran a hand through her hair and looked at me. “Should I be worried?”

“Not in this case,” I said, smiling. I took her hand and led her toward the dance floor, just onto the edge at first, until the current song ended. The music swelled, and I rested a hand on Danny’s shoulder. Her right hand immediately came to rest, gently but firmly, just below my shoulder blade. A sign of a decent lead, which made me wonder if she didn’t have at least a little ballroom training. I would have to look into that more later.

She raised her eyebrows slightly at my song selection, but eased into the rhythm of the music almost effortlessly. She had said it had been a while since she had danced. Admittedly, it had been some time since I had danced like this as well. We glided effortlessly along in our little corner of the dance floor. Thankfully no one bumped into us. If they had, I would have been sorely tempted to throttle them for interrupting a rather delightful moment.

When the song came to an end, Danny didn’t let go of my hand. She took a deep breath, glanced away for a moment, then looked back at me.

“So…was that…” She took another breath. “Sorry, I’m not good at this. Was there some kind of flirtation involved in that song choice? Because the lyrics are–”

I cut her off by laying a finger against her lips. “If you’re asking if that was my way of asking you on a date, Danny H. Marsh, then you would be correct.”

Danny grinned slowly, and looked like she was half tempted to duck her head or look away for a moment. “Okay. Good. I was hoping that it meant something.” She gave my hand a squeeze, and we began walking off the dance floor. “I’m not always good at telling when something like that means something and when it doesn’t.”

I cupped her cheek gently with my free hand, and for a moment I was afraid I’d somehow short circuited her. She relaxed after a moment, however, and I smiled. “In that case, I’ll be sure to make my feelings obvious.”

Fic: To Everything There Is a Season

I wrote this partly because of a dream. I intend to write more of these characters/this universe; they’ll be tagged OTP: Star and Hero. Since this is a story coming at a point where Estella (the “Star” in the OTP) and Detective Danny H. Marsh (the “H” is for “Hero” and thus the other part of the OTP name) have been a couple for a while, here is a short cheat sheet of details:

+ Estella is a vampire; she lives with several of her vampire family members and the family’s Matriarch in a large Victorian-ish house out in close to the middle of nowhere in some town/small city in a state i haven’t yet decided upon
+ Danny is a police detective who somehow found herself as one of the family’s human helper monkeys (this is because of Estella, somehow, because she met Estella first, then got pulled into helping out before she knew the fam was vamps)
+ Estella is bisexual
+ Danny is an ace lesbian
+ The Matriarch looks like Holland Taylor
+ Rush is human and is a very fit-and-active-and-could-kick-your-ass-in-a-bar-fight 60-something who’s been working for the family for around 40 years
+ There are other human helpers, they just didn’t show up here (partly because they weren’t in my dream much)


The sun was setting when I heard gunfire. Close. Three shots, three distinct weapons from the sound of it, and the middle one was louder, deeper sounding. There was silence for a moment after that. Then I heard the front door flung open, followed by heavy footsteps and the sound of something being dragged. The smell of blood hit me immediately.

“Essie?!” Rush’s normally calm, gravely voice called out in a frantic-sounding stage-whisper. He knew the rest of the family would still be asleep at this time of day. I had always been an early riser, and my death and rebirth as a vampire had not stopped that.

I came downstairs through the kitchen passageway to avoid whatever sunlight might come through the open front door. Rush’s back was to me as he dragged a bleeding body into the shade of the sitting area. He must have heard my steps, because his turned to face me. Concern and something close to panic showed clearly on his lined, weathered face.

“It’s Marsh,” he said. “She’s hit bad, Essie…”

I dropped to my knees beside the body as Rush gently released his grip on the back collar of Detective Danny H. Marsh’s blazer. She was always so particular about her name, always including the “H.” She’d told me it stood for Hero. I still didn’t know if she was joking or if it really did stand for Hero. I’d never had Rush or anyone else look into her background. Neither I nor the family had ever had any need to doubt her.

And now Danny was bleeding out in front of me, her white shirt a shredded mass of red.

My eyes flashed at Rush. “What happened?

“That hunter McClellan came ‘round again. Got the drop on her. Shotgun.” Rush’s face was a thundercloud. “She got one shot off at him, but he was rushin’ and she missed. I got him in the head, though. He won’t be a problem now.” Not once Rush disposed of the body, anyway.

Danny drew a labored breath. I eased her head and shoulders onto my lap as gently as I could, and she raised an unsteady, bloodied hand to my cheek. I felt the sting of tears in my eyes as she tried to smile at me.

“Stella–”

“Shh, don’t try to talk.” I took her bloody hand in one of mine and stroked her cheek with the other. “I’m here.”

She reached for me again with her other hand, breath hitching and wheezing, and brushed bloody fingertips against my lips. Hooking a finger to pull aside my lower lip, she brushed a fingertip against my undescended canine.

“…please…” There were tears in Danny’s eyes. Her pulse was weakening, and I knew what she was asking me to do. We’d discussed the topic once, briefly, but we hadn’t made a decision. Not really. I didn’t think fate would force our hands this soon.

I stroked her cheek. “Are you sure? You know what will happen.”

Please.” She was more forceful this time, so close to begging. And I couldn’t tell her no. From the moment I began to care about her, I knew I’d never be able to refuse her if she asked for this.

I brought her wrist to my lips and kissed it, then sank my fangs into the faint pulse beneath my lips. She didn’t cry out, though she did make a strained, wet, wheezing sound that pained my heart to hear. When she was nearly gone, I bit my own wrist and held it to her mouth. At first she barely had the strength to lap at the blood. Then, gradually, she strengthened, though it still hardly took any effort on my part to pry her away when she’d had enough.

I gathered Danny into my arms and held her close as my blood began to work it’s transformation on her. Rush stroked my hair as he slipped passed me and out the front door, closing it behind him. The rest of the family would be up soon, and I expect he wanted to get started on cleaning up whatever mess remained on the porch. While we’d never have to worry about McClellan again, he wasn’t likely to be the last vampire hunter to come after us, even if there were far fewer now than there had been in centuries past.

Danny had finally relaxed against me when I glanced up to find the twins eying us curiously, if understandingly. “Ask Rush,” I said. “And he could use your help disposing of McClellan’s body.” Hiram grinned slowly, and Jeremiah clapped him gently on the back before they both made their way out the door to help Rush.

Alone again, I hummed a little, then began softly singing to Danny as she rested and the transformation worked to completion. It was an old song I heard as a child. So long ago. Long, long before Danny was born. I’d sung it for her once before, when she’d had a nightmare. That was the first night we’d said we loved each other. It seemed fitting to sing it again now.

“So she’s joined the family, then.”

I turned my head back toward the kitchen to find the Matriarch leaning on her cane. She made her way into the sitting area and eased herself into the overstuffed chair she often treated as a throne.

“Well,” she said. “I knew it would happen sooner or later. A pity it means we lose her ability to be active during the day. But better to part with that than have you lose her entirely.”

My cheeks burned slightly, which made the Matriarch chuckle. “She’s a rare one, your Danny, loving you for you and not because of the magnetic hold we so often have over mortals.” The Matriarch chuckled again before standing. “I’ll leave you two for now. I’d best have someone down to the cellar to fetch something for when she wakes up hungry enough to drain a herd of cattle.” Her chuckle faded as she walked away. “Good thing we live in the middle of nowhere with no juicy villagers to tempt her.”

I shook my head. The Matriarch always made the same joke whenever the family gained a member. Even if some years we had lived closer to humans. She meant well enough, and she’d never guided us wrong.

Danny shifted in my arms, groaning softly. I brushed my lips against her forehead and she settled again. “Rest, my love,” I murmured. “We have all the time in the world now.”

I wrote some fluff of my Inquisitor and her girlfriends. Brahda Cadash is asexual and in a romantic poly triad with Cass and Vivienne; Cass and Viv also have a sexual relationship with each other.

In this ficlet, Vivienne finds that Cass and Brahda have been looking at reports for too long and she has to be the responsible one. Again.

Vivienne smiled and shook her head at the the sight before her. Cassandra and Brahda had clearly spent far too much time reading over the papers and books scattered over the table in front of them. Cassandra’s head lay pillowed on one arm, her other arm draped across more papers. Brahda leaned against her, head against the Seeker’s shoulder. The Inquisitor’s mouth was slightly open, and Vivienne heard her snoring softly.

Her lovers were ridiculous, but they were also adorable. She almost hated to wake them. But for the sake of the documents and for the sake their shoulders, necks, and backs, she felt compelled to wake them.

Vivienne stepped around beside Cassandra and trailed an elegant finger along the scar on the Seeker’s cheek cheek until she stirred. Upon awakening, Cassandra sat up suddenly before realizing that Brahda was leaning against her, which sent Brahda tumbling backward off the bench. Cassandra let out a groggily surprised, “Shit!” as Brahda hit the floor.

From the floor Brahda grunted and blinked up at Vivienne and Cassandra. Vivienne was relieved that the dwarf appeared to be fine aside from being a little dazed and freshly awakened.

“…’d I fall asleep?” Brahda asked, making no effort to move from the floor or to move her legs from their new place of being propped against the bench.

“You <i>both</i> fell asleep, darling,” Vivienne replied, arching a brow.

Brahda grunted and rubbed her eyes while Cassandra attempted to straighten the papers on the table. Vivienne placed a hand over Cassandra’s and shook her head. “Leave them. You can look at them again once you’ve slept. Now, to bed with both of you.”

Cassandra stood and stepped over the bench, giving Vivienne a quick kiss before reaching down to help Brahda (who had already started dozing off again) from the floor.

Vivienne clucked her tongue and shook her head. “Whatever shall I do with the two of you?”

Brahda flashed a sleepy but roguish grin and answered, “Love us,” which brought an eye-roll from Cassandra and a laugh from Vivienne.

“I must admit that I do,” Vivienne said. “Now, let’s get you to bed before Cassandra has to carry you, shall we?”

Mass Effect MP character drabble

Had a bit of inspiration for my Krogan Vanguard, Rok, and her personal thoughts on the Genophage cure.

Reports said there was a cure for the Genophage. Not the sort of thing she’d expected to ever hear. Somebody had a quad, that was for sure. Big deal for the Krogan on Tuchanka. She just wasn’t sure what it meant to her.

She hadn’t been on Tuchanka for nearly five hundred years. She was born biotic, just like her broodsister. Surprised the hell out of her Clan. Neither one of them turned out to be fertile, which was no surprise to anyone. That much rage and raw biotic power needed an outlet bigger than Tuchanka, so they caught a freighter off-world. They hit Omega and split up.

Work wasn’t hard to find, and nobody had any idea she wasn’t a male: all krogan looked the same once you stuck a helmet on them.

And now the Reapers were tearing up the galaxy and some human managed to cure the Genophage. Cure wouldn’t be worth a damn if they didn’t beat the Reapers. Besides, cure might not be any good to any krogan not on Tuchanka. She wasn’t sure she wanted to try to find out. Wouldn’t be worth another stillborn clutch if it didn’t work for her.

No, the cure was for other krogan. Khel Rok was gonna stick to fighting Reapers so that Cure was worth something.

FemShep/Miranda – Ceremony

I actually wrote this a while back, but now seems a good time to post it.

FemShep/Miranda, post-ME3 AUish, sort of awkwardly dancing around their feelings for each other as Miranda helps a still recovering Shepard get dressed for a memorial/commendation ceremony.

———————–

“Walk me through this again.”

Miranda did her best not to smile at Shepard’s anxiety. “It’s a commendation ceremony, part of an on-going series of remembrance ceremonies that the various government remnants have be staging. And since the <i>Normandy</i> has returned and you can walk on your own now…” She paused as Shepard’s gaze flickered to cane leaning against her bed, then amended, “Mostly on your own. The Alliance brass decided now was as good a time as any, and the others seem to have agreed. You’re receiving several awards, even if the physical medals may not be available at the moment.” She decided not to warn Shepard about the promotion the Commander would also be receiving.

Shepard ran her hands over her face. “I’m guessing you didn’t tell them I haven’t quite gotten the hang of dressing myself yet.”

“You’re getting there, Shepard.” Miranda stepped over to Shepard’s dress blues and started laying the garments out on the bed. “But you do need a little help, so we’d better get started.”

She held the uniform’s blue knit shirt out to Shepard, who took it with a sigh. Miranda knew this wasn’t easy for Shepard, and she expected her to drag her feet getting dressed, even without the added difficulty of not having quite the strength back to do so on her own. She watched Shepard struggle with the shirt for a few moments before easing it the rest of the way on for her; Shepard wouldn’t meet her eyes, but that was hardly surprising. Shepard managed her socks on her own. The trousers were easy enough to pull up, but fastening them eluded her.

“Here.” Miranda’s hands brushed Shepard’s as she took over. She was very aware of just how close she was to Shepard at the moment, and keenly aware of where her hands were. Shepard’s sharp intake of breath when Miranda had taken over seemed to say that she was also keenly aware of where Miranda’s hands were.

Miranda glanced up at Shepard in time to catch the Commander wetting her lips. Their eyes locked for a moment before Shepard cleared her throat.

“Thanks.” Shepard’s voice was almost its usual pitch now, but a little of the rasp remained. “They, um, don’t seem to be going to stay in the right place. Guess I lost more weight than I thought.”

Letting go of Shepard’s trousers, Miranda opened a small box that contained blue braces almost the same color as the uniform’s shirt. “These ought to do the trick. I expected things wouldn’t fit exactly as expected.”

Shepard chuckled softly. “Guess you really thought of everything.”

Miranda rolled her eyes and set about attaching the braces to Shepard’s trousers. Which once again put her extremely close to Shepard, who once again seemed to find it basically as distracting as Miranda did. Once the braces were in place, Miranda helped Shepard into her uniform jacket, which proved more of an ordeal than either had expected.

She let Shepard sit down for a moment and got a cool, damp cloth. She wiped it gently across Shepard’s brow, clearing away the beads of sweat that had sprung up. Shepard sighed and leaned against the cloth. Miranda wanted to give Shepard something for the pain she’d just reawakened, but she was fairly sure that Shepard wanted to go through the ceremony without drugs in her system. Miranda wasn’t sure how well that would go; she knew Shepard was still in more pain than she’d let on. She sighed and set the cloth aside, then brushed the hair away from Shepard’s forehead before helping her stand again to finish closing the clasps on her uniform.

The jacket, like the trousers, clearly stated that Shepard still had a ways to go in recovering. But Miranda had to admit that the Commander did look good in uniform.

“There.” Miranda nodded at her handiwork. “Off you go, Commander. I’ll see you later.”

Shepard grabbed her cane and shook her head as she headed for the door. “If I survive this…”

Miranda had no doubt that she would, even if it was likely to be more than a little painful.

Tiny fic thing about how Shepard decides to handle losing her scars after Cerberus brings her back, and how Dr. Chakwas reacts to Shepard’s decision.

“I needed this, doc.”

Somehow, Chakwas thinks, the bloody towel pressed diagonally across Shepard’s face takes years off. Looking at Shepard now, she sees the twenty-three-year-old whose dogged tenacity brought her through the ordeals of Akuze. She sees the sixteen-year-old farm girl who lost everything she’d ever known when the batarians attacked Mindoir.

But as she eases the towel away from Shepard’s face, the years and the hardships and the toil come rushing back. All the terrible weight of knowing the truth about something and having so very few believe you. The weight of losing two years after going down with the ship. And the weight no one had thought of, the weight of losing all the scars you’d gained along the way that reminded you it was all real.

Shepard glances up at her, as if expecting reproach or judgement. Chakwas examines the Commander’s handiwork without a word. The cut went through Shepard’s right eyebrow, across the bridge of her nose, and down into her cheek. It was a near perfect tracing of the scar that had been there before Shepard’s death.

“Well, Commander. I suppose I should clean you up and stitch this up for you.” Shepard wants a scar. Chakwas isn’t going to judge her for that. And seeing the tension go out of the Commander’s face and shoulders is enough of a reward.

femShep x Miranda fic stuff

So. One of my femSheps has turned into the femShep I ship with ALL the human lady LIs (the one’s that count for Paramour; Allers is not her type and does not count). Started off shipping her with Ash, then Jack, then Samantha.

And then I got hit hard with post-ME3 shipping her with Miranda. Which is a bucket full of working through a lot of things, and only works post-ME3 (with some AUing of ME2, as it requires that Miranda survive the final part of the Suicide Mission after telling TIM to shove it and she quits Cerberus, even after Shepard told her in no uncertain terms to get off Jack’s back) after Shepard has seen Miranda actively fighting against Cerberus (even if a large part of that was mostly fighting against her dad).

Because this Shepard is an Akuze survivor, and her issues with Cerberus only ever went up. But after ME3, things are…different. Cerberus is mostly, if not totally, destroyed (for all we know, at least).

Anyway. On to some fic bits that are pavement on the road to a ‘ship.

“She was, um, adamant about not allowing us to do anything that would minimize or completely eliminate scarring. If she hadn’t been so badly injured, we’d probably have had to sedate her to get any work done on her face at all.”

Miranda stared at the audio communication panel. That certainly sounded like the sort of reaction Shepard would have. She remembered the distress that being reconstructed without her previous scars had caused the Commander. Shepard had miraculously survived the firing of the Crucible; if she pulled through the surgeries to come, there was no reason to begrudge her a few physical imperfections.

“Have your notes on Commander Shepard’s condition ready for my inspection when I arrive, doctor.”

“Yes, Ms. Lawson.”

Miranda took a deep breath. She knew more than anyone about putting Shepard back together. She just hadn’t expected to be doing it again, or under less than ideal conditions.

———

Shepard’s first thought was how dry her mouth felt. The second was that she was still alive, somehow, after everything that had happened. By rights, she shouldn’t be. She certainly hadn’t expected to live.

She expected she was in some field hospital somewhere in London. She could tell through her eyelids that there was light coming from somewhere in the room, and that made her hesitant about opening her eyes just yet.

“Shepard?”

The voice startled her. Shepard opened her eyes, blinking until the person who’d spoken shifted into her line of sight, mercifully blocking some of the light. She gazed up into familiar blue eyes and sighed.

“Miranda.” Talking was harder than she’d expected, and the name came out as a barely audible rasp. Shepard closed her eyes again and swallowed against the dryness in her throat. “You’re…making a habit of this.”

“And you’ve continued your habit of near-death experiences, Shepard.” There was a surprising amount of relief in Miranda’s voice, despite her choice of words. “I’ll see if an orderly can find you some ice-chips. Don’t try to talk any more just yet. The Alliance brass would flay me if I let you tire yourself out so soon after regaining consciousness.”

Shepard replied with a faint grunt. She had questions, so many questions, but she wasn’t sure she had the strength to hear the answers just yet.

———

Rebuilding Shepard for the second time was a very different process from the first. There was more of Shepard to work with, true, but Miranda had fewer resources at her disposal. Resources that had to be shared with thousands. And more than a few people were still hesitant about working with ex-Cerberus personal, despite the role that former Cerberus scientists–and Miranda herself–had played in defeating the Reapers. It was frustrating.

The second rebuild was also complicated by Shepard herself. A conscious, or at least occasionally conscious, patient was different from a comatose one. Miranda felt lucky that Shepard was, for the most part, content to restrict conversation to inquiries about the Normandy. The only problem with that was the uncomfortable twinge she felt every time she told Shepard that there was no news. Watching a spark flare in those ridiculously green eyes every time Shepard asked, only to see it fade every time there was nothing to say hurt more than Miranda was willing to admit, even to herself.

The only other topic Shepard showed an open interest in was in keeping any scars resulting from from her injuries or the surgeries that followed them.

“Shepard–” She’d turned to walk away, only to have Shepard clutch her hand. For someone recovering from massive injuries, Shepard’s grip was surprisingly strong. Perhaps it was the desperation.

“I need this, Miranda. That’s all I’m asking. Don’t take them away from me this time.” The intensity of her gaze made Miranda uncomfortable; it also gave her the chilling impression that Shepard would actually do everything in her power to put back any scars Miranda tried to take away.

“All right, Shepard. I’ll make a note of it in your files.” The tension went out of Shepard’s grip, and her hand slipped down to rest at her side. Miranda took a relieved breath as Shepard’s eyes closed.

“Thanks, Miranda.”

———

She didn’t ask Miranda or the doctors how long she’d been unconscious or how long it had been since the Crucible had fired. She couldn’t do anything about anything while she was stuck in a bed, and she couldn’t handle any new demons. Not just yet.

Shepard had too many questions running through her mind as it was. The Normandy’s whereabouts. EDI’s status. The Geth’s status. The thing that had claimed to be the Catalyst had said the Crucible would destroy all synthetics, but it had seemed too sympathetic toward the Reapers for her to trust it completely. She had to cling to the hope that the Catalyst had lied. Otherwise, she had the deaths of an entire race on her head, in addition to the lives of all the Battarians in the Bahak system. She’d have to live with whatever happened, but she wasn’t ready to deal with that guilt yet, if it existed.

She wondered, too, if Anderson’s body had been recovered. She hoped it had; he deserved a decent burial and a hero’s funeral.

Shepard swallowed hard and pressed the button to administrate another dose of painkillers. The pain was worse than she let on; she knew that there would be many, many other soldiers who needed whatever medication was available. She’d get through the pain. Hopefully without an addiction to painkillers.

———

Miranda had seen Shepard have nightmares through the SR2’s surveillance system, but that did not prove adequate preparation for being in Shepard’s room during one. It certainly didn’t prepare her for the unexpected desire to reassure Shepard that whatever it was she saw in the dream, it wasn’t happening now, and she wasn’t alone.

Shepard clung to her like a drowning person. Miranda held her close, stroking her hair and gently rubbing a non-bandaged portion of the Commander’s back. She didn’t say anything; she didn’t really no what to say in this sort of situation, and she suspected that platitudes would sound hollow.

Gradually, Shepard’s breathing slowed and her grip loosened. She pulled away a little and looked at Miranda. It was a complicated look. Confusion, remnants of fear, embarrassment, and what Miranda was fairly sure was a flicker of resentment. Resentment for what? Being there to witness this? Or for being tangentially responsible, at least in Shepard’s mind, for what the nightmare had been about?

But instead of pulling away entirely, as she expected, Shepard sagged against her, her head resting on Miranda’s shoulder. Shepard’s breath was warm against her skin.

“I’m…not used to waking up like…that…with company.” Shepard’s voice was still lower than usual, raspy from lack of regular use.

———

Shepard hadn’t awakened from a nightmare with anyone in the room with her since being hospitalized after Akuze. She wasn’t sure how she felt about Miranda being the first person to be there. But she hadn’t seen judgement in the other woman’s eyes, just uncertainty and concern. Having Miranda there did seem to have warded off the horrible, aching feeling of being alone that waking up from the dreams had always brought with it before.

Leaning against Miranda felt surprisingly reassuring. It was strange, being the one to depend on someone else after being the one in charge for so long. Being the one who had to be strong. Now the war was over, and she herself was one of the people and places that had to be rebuilt. Having to let other people do the work because she physically couldn’t yet…that was hard. At least Miranda had experience in that. And she wasn’t a stranger.

She took a shaking breath and sighed. “Thanks for being here, Miranda.”