3 years ago I wrote a very personal prose piece titled The Morning After I Killed Myself, about a young woman who commits suicide and looks back on the impact it has on her family and friends and ends up regretting her decision. I posted it on my writing blog 3 years ago and it went viral, shared over 300,000 times on my blog and almost a million times on Imgur/Reddit.
So many people have told me it’s saved their lives.
But I almost wish I hadn’t written it. Because, despite all the good it managed to do, it’s been plagiarized over a hundred times, probably several hundred. I’ve seen dozens of cases of it being stolen and retitled with someone else’s name as the author, cases of it being published in someone else’s book under their name, cases of it being used as song lyrics by a band who claims they wrote it, cases of it being posted nearly ten times on the same website alone and because the website is so enormous they didn’t catch each instance of plagiarism…
Once a girl based her senior art thesis off of my piece…only she accidentally based it off of a plagiarized version of my piece and had no idea. She called me, a complete stranger, in tears, begging me to forgive her for something that was not her fault at all, but the fault of the person who plagiarized me. She had to redo portions of the thesis she worked so hard on.
I’ve had cases of it being submitted to writing contests under other peoples’ names and them winning awards for it. One girl submitted it to the Scholastic Art and Writing Awards and won a gold key for it, coincidentally the same contest I submitted some of my work to in high school and won awards for. What was her excuse? She said she read the piece awhile ago, liked it so much that she saved it to her computer, and when the time came to submit to the contest, she “forgot she hadn’t written it” and sent it in under her name.
I had a case of a stranger who posted it on their blog under their name and when I asked them, politely, to provide me with credit and remove their name, they claimed they’d “written the piece 10 years ago in their private journal and that I was the one who plagiarized them.”
I’ve had cases of people messaging my writing blog and accusing me of plagiarism…of my own piece, because they saw plagiarized versions of it going viral and had no idea I was the original author.
And finally, a few weeks ago, a girl submitted it to a contest under her name and won $100 for it. Now she’s apparently denying plagiarism.
This piece of mine was intended to help people. It’s a very very personal piece and always will be. I’m glad it’s helped so many people. But something that is so personal and painful for me has been twisted and manipulated and stolen and published for profit and taken away from me so many times I’ve lost count. I don’t care about money. But when I saw this girl win $100 for a piece about suicide that I wrote, that is the last straw.
Please, for the love of god, don’t steal from artists and writers. Don’t steal something and claim you wrote it. Write and create your own work. If you see a piece of art or writing floating around with no source or a mis-attributed source, tell the original author. Spread the word. Don’t share artworks without sources on them.
You might think that it’s not a big deal, that it doesn’t matter, that it only happened once.
But it happens all the time. All the time. This is exhausting and artists deserve credit. They deserve respect.
I’ve considered deleting the writing blog I’ve had for 5 years because of how often this piece is plagiarized.
Don’t let it get to that point, where someone considers getting rid of something they love because it’s hardly theirs anymore.
Azshara and her followers ended up hundreds of miles from shore after the continent split apart and the city sank. Think atlantis. What’s more, is she’s sunk so far down she’d never make it to the surface without drowning. And she basically used most of her power trying to buy herself (and her people to a small extent) more time.
BEFORE
AFTER
She was in the Maelstrom area. She be fucked yo
…my brain’s first response to the map changes was, “You fucked up a perfectly good continent. Now look at it, it’s got anxiety!”
Under the cut, I am retyping the original source in gender-neutral language, as atypical autism traits do notonly appear in girls.
If you are Autistic and your autism matches this profile, it does not mean that you must be a girl; it just means your autism is a kind that often gets missed by traditional diagnostic profiles. These traits were commonly found by researchers in cisgender girls, but they are by no means exclusive to cisgender girls.
In other news, I am super surprised that I haven’t given myself a TMJ flare-up with the number of times a day I catch myself clenching my teeth.
Things Ames Realized In Therapy Today:
I basically spent undergrad and my first MA majoring in some of my special interests (minored in history, kind of went for Things With Battles when available; majored and MA’d in English Lit, went for Brit, went for Here There Be Knights and Sword Play as much as possible, which meant mostly Medieval to Early Modern), had the sense to realize during the end of the Lit MA that professoring was not for me (Publish Or Perish = anathema), then went back to school for an MA in Education (because what the hell else do you do with a BA/MA in English besides teach?) and then today realized that my brief stint of teaching was hellish not only because of the school’s environment and lack of administrative support but also because I was dealing with All of That as an undiagnosed Autistic, which turned things up to 11.
So yeah, Super fun when the main career areas associated with some of your special interests Do Not Work for you. And then you discover that retail and call center work is also Made of Nope, and you know fast food would be over-stimulation Noise Hell (but they never asked to interview you when you applied so that actually Worked Out Well).
So. Working on learning to better Know Myself and thinking of things that would not be hell as work, but pay decently-ish, because this would be easier without the pesky part where I also have Type I diabetes and lol American healthcare.
Here is a list of resources about autism, with a focus on actually autistic voices, divided by topic. You will find articles, websites, videos, Youtube channels, etc., most of them created by autistic people. If there are resources you would like to contribute to this post, or if you have other suggestions, don’t hesitate to let me know.
While this is from the Autism Women’s Network, it includes other genders as well.
Horrible things have been done in the name of science and in the name of religion. Occasionally you get them working in tandem, which is really disgusting and generally involves hypocrisy.
I felt compelled to write this after reading about a piece of shit psychologist named Rekers, whose first named I cannot be arsed to look up. Fucker.