Nothing to do with anyone who can read this, but I needed to vent. As you will see by the swearing. Which I generally save for special occasions.
To whom it may concern: Fuck you and fuck the high horse you rode the fuck in on, you fucking pissbaby asshole.
The only downside of the resume work shop was the woman doing it telling all us of us that we were “too young to need a mental health day.” Considering I had two different flavors of unexpected anxiety bullshit episodes today prior to that, I mental did the “::looks into camera like on The Office::” thing. Nice ableism there, ma’am.
Other moment of oddity was being a 29-year-old in a room full of people still young enough to ask if they should put stuff from high school on their “I want a teaching job” resumes.
My anxiety gave me a big ol’ middle finger twice today.
Luckily I already have everything prepared for tomorrow so I can just basically do nothing this evening.
Other than go to a resume work shop. I do not have high expectations for that, since I’ve had issues with my uni’s resume department before.
So.
Fun tiems 😐
I’m about as awkward at Second Chance Prom as a 29 year old as I was at senior prom as an 18 year old. But I am more comfortable. Because this time I’m wearing pants, shirt, tie, and suspenders instead of a dress and heels.
Tonight’s music isn’t really my speed/scene/style.
I did get in my cardio for the week doing the Cupid Shuffle, though.
May go to a Second Chance Prom at my uni tonight.
3: what would be your job in the star wars universe?
Possibly some kind of archivist.
6: what kind of droid would you own?
A BB astromech!
10 = answered!
15 = answered!
24: what do you think Moz would give to you in her basement?
A very ancient text/data-thingy of some sort.
29: if you were a clone how would you distinguish yourself from the others?
Lemmy-esque or Hugh-Jackman-Wolverine-esque facial hair and various tattoos and armor art if I was a canon!clone. If all the clones came from a female Fett, then hair style and tats and armor art.
32: what imperial craft would you command and why?
Lancer-class frigate. I can has ship, but I am not so high on the food chain that I’m super likely to get Force-choked if anything goes wrong.
37: what would you smuggle in your ship for profit?
Um. Rare stuff. Antiques and shit.No one expects antiques smugglers.
38: what kind of lightsaber / fight style would you have?
Basket-hilted lightsaber. Only more like this. With green blade. Style…probably primarily Soresu.
2: what generation in the star wars timeline would you live in?
Gonna have to go with the original trilogy on this one.
7: what would you do if your ship just got boarded by stormtroopers and you had stolen plans to their new space station?
Hide. Attempt to find an escape pod. Probably have a panic attack XD;
10: how would you run the galaxy if you were the emperor?
A lot of delegating and a lot of klonopin. But. I would do my best to insure universal healthcare to the denizens of my empire, enforce a level of income that would allow all workers to live comfortably without worrying about day-to-day life, and provide education and basic job training free to all citizens.
15: how would you get ewoks to become your ally?
Give them snacks. I mean, it worked great for Leia.
20: describe the life style of a scruffy looking nerf hearder?
I’m imagining that it would be a lot like the nomadic herding of Mongolian steppe herders, only scruffy-looking.
41: how would you train your jedi padiwan?
Very carefully and with a lot of communication. Like, “Know that you can always talk to me about anything, not just your training or the Force”; some Socratic type questioning if they question something to make them think about what they’re thinking and why they’re thinking it, and also the same with feelings. Basically I want to be the Supportive But Firm Aunt of Jedi Masters.
1: what color would your lightsaber be and why?
2: what generation in the star wars timeline would you live in?
3: what would be your job in the star wars universe?
4: would you join the rebelion or the empire?
5: what would be your species of alien?
6: what kind of droid would you own?
7: what would you do if your ship just got boarded by stormtroopers and you had stolen plans to their new space station?
8: would you try aunt beru’s blue milk?
9: which star wars bounty hunter do you most relate with?
10: how would you run the galaxy if you were the emporer?
11: would you upset a wookie? Apparently its not wise.
12: what planet would be your home?
13: would you trust Jar Jar Binks?
14: what color would your pod racer be?
15: how would you get ewoks to become your ally?
16: what would your Darth name be?
17: if you had one force power what would it be?
18: how would you free a princess from a deathstar?
19: what would you do if you just failed darth vader?
20: describe the life style of a scruffy looking nerf hearder?
21: would you rather be a bantha or a taun taun and why?
22: what drink would you order at the cantina?
23: what would be you TK stormtrooper number?
24: what do you think Moz would give to you in her basement?
25: how would you escape the blast of the death star or star killer base?
26: what would be your droid name?
27: what would you name your ship?
28: what would be your job in the galactic senate?
29: if you were a clone how would you distinguish yourself from the others?
30: what would be your star wars weapon of choice?
31: what would you do to apease jabba the hutt?
32: what imperial craft would you command and why?
33: of your friends what would their jobs be aboard your starship or settlement?
34: what would your life as a death sticks dealer on courescant be like?
35: how would you improve your aim as a stormtrooper?
36: what rebel starfighter would you pilot in the fight against the death star and why?
37: what would you smuggle in your ship for profit?
38: what kind of lightsaber / fight style would you have?
39: what would you do for fun in the star wars universe?
40: what would be the weirdest thing youd want to do in the star wars universe?
41: how would you train your jedi padiwan?
42: what would you do if you were betrayed by your best bud on bespin?
43: where would you be stationed as a stormtrooper and why?
44: what climate of planet is your favorite?
45: what would you do if you were stuck on a star tours shuttle and you found out someone was a rebel spy?
46: what star wars hero or villan would you most like to meet?
47: what pattern would you paint on your xwing fighter?
48: what kind of jedi would you be?
49: describe your outfit in the star wars universe?
50: if you could change one thing in the star wars universe what would it be?
Not one I’m on board with. It doesn’t jive at all with the novelization or before the awakening either.
I’m leaning more towards the idea the force gave him the nudge to break his conditioning. Helped him realize the ‘right thing to do’.
That is reminiscent of the “Sam Wilson is secretly HYDRA” theory (which I am so not on board with) and is part of why “Finn is a sleeper agent”/”Finn will fall to the Dark Side” are also things I’m not on board with.
Kirkwall Was Totally Built On a Hellmouth 
