kirkwallhellmouth

Got super lucky and got another appointment with psychologist for Tuesday because a cancellation occurred.

So relieved.

Fuck you, anxiety.

Might call psychologist’s office tomorrow to see if there’s anything sooner than Halloween.

Can I just short cut and call my gender “Knight in Shining Armor”/“Awkward Prince Charming”/“Wannabe Dapper Swashbuckler”?

I feel like I haven’t given her a full enough picture yet of How I Gender and that is making me hella fucking anxious. Because I’m me and my GNCness doesn’t need fixing and and I am a ball of freshly mostly-shaved head anxiety.

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“…even with my lover sleeping close to me / I’m wide awake and I’m in pain.”

“You gotta give me a minute, ‘cause I’m way down in it / and I can’t breath so I can’t speak…”

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I’m in a “songs sung blue”/sad mood.

This music night brought to you by my complicated with gender and my body and my anxiety on how my psychologist is taking what because Conversation Interuptus happened today and i don’t see her again till Halloween 😐

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It sucks when you’re really getting into some of the meatier part of something, and then it turns out your session time is up, because unlikeyou your psychologist has a better tuned concept of time.

And so then you’re stuck hoping you remember all the things you wanted to continue with when you have the next session, but until then you sit on your anxiety’s desire to Hulk Smash and try to convince it to calm down.