For the first time, I am experiencing a positive feeling about the possibility of managing to get top surgery/double mastectomy.

I still don’t know how my various doctors will react when I introduce the subject.

I still don’t know how or when I would manage the money.

But for for the first time, I am having a positive moment about the possibility going forward.

And I am embracing that fully, even if part of this might be the ativan talking.