Things Ames Realized In Therapy Today:

I basically spent undergrad and my first MA majoring in some of my special interests (minored in history, kind of went for Things With Battles when available; majored and MA’d in English Lit, went for Brit, went for Here There Be Knights and Sword Play as much as possible, which meant mostly Medieval to Early Modern), had the sense to realize during the end of the Lit MA that professoring was not for me (Publish Or Perish = anathema), then went back to school for an MA in Education (because what the hell else do you do with a BA/MA in English besides teach?) and then today realized that my brief stint of teaching was hellish not only because of the school’s environment and lack of administrative support but also because I was dealing with All of That as an undiagnosed Autistic, which turned things up to 11.

So yeah, Super fun when the main career areas associated with some of your special interests Do Not Work for you. And then you discover that retail and call center work is also Made of Nope, and you know fast food would be over-stimulation Noise Hell (but they never asked to interview you when you applied so that actually Worked Out Well).

So. Working on learning to better Know Myself and thinking of things that would not be hell as work, but pay decently-ish, because this would be easier without the pesky part where I also have Type I diabetes and lol American healthcare.